Friendship.

I know I am a good friend to those who I consider a friend of mine.  But friendship is built on trust. When you don't have that then what do you have?

I'm not proud, but I have gone through many people I  my life who I have called close friends.  And it seems like every year my list seems to get shorter and shorter.  I feel like when I lose a friend, either because of time or distance, I lose a part of myself.

But the beauty about friendships is that you always make new one.  The sad part is that I become cautious about it.  It's hard for me to trust now.  I try to keep my distance from people.  I just don't want to be hurt or betrayed by people anymore.

I don't think that I really have anyone in my life who I would consider my "best" friend.  To be honest I don't think anyone considers me to be theirs.  And that's completely fine with me really.  Because people that close to you can hurt you worst. And that something I just don't fancy.

Friends come and go, but the people who decide to stay constant in your life are no longer your friends. They become your family.  So if your one of those lucky few whom call family, dome fuck it up.  It's hard to win trust back.

Because I'm worth more than just to have people pass in and out of my life as they please.  And if you were truly my friend you would know why.