Holidays.

Thanksgiving next week. Christmas next month.

Oh the Holidays...What a love/hate relationship we have.

I don't know what my deal is with the Holidays.  Maybe it's because I can only remember ONE Thanksgiving that was really awesome (the one at my sister's Sandara's house where practically the whole family was there) and the one Christmas that was worth remembering (the one at my brother Sokhan's house).

Maybe it's because during this time of year you are usually with family and I just don't really have any in Utah anymore.

It's probably because I'm homesick.

And the three days that it did snow in Utah it reminded me of Minnesota and how much I kind of miss it there.  Talked to my parent's on the phone and it just reminded me how much I love and miss them so much and that they are getting old and I wish I could spend some time with them.

But atlas...I'm here.  In Utah.

Maybe it's because since I've been back in Utah I've only had bad Holidays.

One Christmas I was accused of being a bad mother.  One Thanksgiving I cooked worked all morning...cooked all day and not get a simple "thank you for dinner" from anyone.  Another Thanksgiving people complained about the food because I wanted to try something different with my sweet potatoes.

The past three years of Holidays were the worst.  And maybe I'm just homesick because all my good memories are in Minnesota.

I guess that just means that with this new life of mine, renewed little family of mine, it's time to make new and better memories.

I still love the Holidays.  I love seeing joy and happiness all around me.  And maybe seeing and being the cause of all that joy and happiness is what the Holidays are all about.

But anyways.  Happy Holidays guys.  If I don't post very often it's because it's the busiest time of year and I'm lazy...Lol! But I will make it a point to at LEAST post something once a week.

And to my family who happens to be all over the US now...

I love you guys and miss you.  Regardless of all that crazy drama that seems to overwhelm our family.  Whatever the disagreement, whatever the betrayal, whatever....I still love ALL of you.  And if there was one wish that can make is that we all get together at least once before mom and dad pass away and take a family photo.  And I mean ALL of us. Because if there is one thing that I have learned this past year is that the meaning of life is family.  And you are all the many reasons why I am who I am today.