I Grew Up Better Than You Because I'm Asian.

Some people are just beyond me.  Why the hell would you allow a teenager to decide who should live in YOUR household?  Its just another form of letting your child walk all over you and its pathetic.  I just think its ridiculous.

Because I'm pretty much sure that the parents you know, pays the bills, buys the food, maintains the roof over your fucking head.  Have some respect for you parents.  Better yet, hey parents have some self respect! Your in charge of your household, take control.

I remember growing up and not having a choice on watching my nieces and nephews.  Mostly because...well I just have no other choice. Bitch and moan I did, but that doesn't change the fact that I HAD to.  I was the oldest in the household of all the kids, I was responsible for them WHETHER or not the parents were there.

Oh yeah, and I was also responsible for making sure the house was clean, rice was always made, and that everything was just basically in order.  I wasn't allowed to sit and read a freaking book for too long because hey...You can always vacuum the floor again.  And do it the right was so all the stripes were aligned. (Seriously....there is a right and wrong way to vacuum in the Asian world. No joke)

Yeah, I know that I grew up in a very strict world.  But if it wasn't for that, I wouldn't be has responsible as I am now.  With actual morals and stuff.  I just know that when my kids get to be teenagers, I will hold what little freedom they have.  I wouldn't let them dictate on what happens.

You go to school, get good grades, come home, watch your siblings, and clean the house.  Period.

..........Yeah I'm Done.

I'm so frustrated. No matter what I do or what I say I'm always wrong.  I'm a good person. I know I am. But I'm always the bad guy. And I'm just sick of it. Really I am.  Van breaks down, oh its my fault. The boy breaks out in hives, oh its my fault.


Ughhh........

Just forget it.  I never get to be the victim, I'm always going to be the Villain.  Which I guess its fine. I get better costumes anyways.

I'm an Atheist! Shocker!!!

I know this is a touchy subject but I think that can I virtually rant about this for a little bit.

 

Lately, I've seen those pictures those "like if you agree" things on Facebook that is about religion.  Now, I don't have a problem with people who believe in god.  Most  of my friends are SUPER religious.  What I do have a problem with is the fact that I feel like people are rubbing it all in my face about it.

Its already bad enough that when I work, people try to preach to me. When I'm walking around on the streets, people try to preach to me. When I am at home, people come to my house and preach to me.  But when I'm online, I refuse to be preached UNLESS its what I'm looking for.

With that said.   I don't care if its a picture of whatever, saying "God loves you" or "God is with your Always..." But when its more like a "Like if you believe in God...if you don't your going to hell..." type thing.  That really bugs me.

First of all, I shouldn't be giving an ultimatum on my beliefs or the lack of.  I already get enough of that from my parents and my in-laws.  But I don't need my friends on Facebook telling me to go to hell because I don't believe in their type of god.  And yes people, I did say TYPE of God. Because all the people around the world believe in different TYPES of Gods.

Lets turn the tables around.  What if I started posting stuff like "I'm an Atheist! That means I'm better than you!!!" Or "Life is better without God in it....That way I can do shit without feeling GUILTY about it!!"  And THEN I start posting pictures so that its all over your Facebook thread and telling people that if they DON'T believe in god....Nothing will happen to you. Lol!

I bet you wouldn't like it.  I bet you would be offended about it.  That's how I feel.  No matter what I do, where I go, who I meet....someone is always going to suggest a conversation that has to do with religion.  Yes I understand that.  However, I am non religious, and unless you assert the fact that you are then I am going to as well.  That's something I do not bring up in a "Nice to meet you...." conversation.  If it is for you, maybe you should rethink your manners.

And for all those people who read this and are on my Facebook, I am not singling anyone out.  Its because it was done in the masses and in different ways is what bugs me.  Now, if my lack of religion offends you, feel free to delete me or never read this or my blog again.  However...just think. I haven't deleted you yet apparently and just like you, just I'm voicing my opinion.

Club Creeper Clings!

Ahhh!!!! Shots!!!

So a few weeks ago I went to a club out in Sandy, Utah with a co-worker.  Awesome time! Slow going at first up after a while people start drinking (heavily) and start dancing which makes it even more fun.

Now, I can usually go home with average of two to three numbers, but ONE mistake that I will never repeat is actually GIVING my number out.  I mean I've put people's numbers into my phone and then call them. BUT I never actually save it to their phone. And their so drunk that they don't even think twice to in the morning all they have is a random missed call on their phone! Best Idea Ever I think so. =D

But when they are sober and they then save your number on their phone, that's when the real creepiness begins.

So I had this girl, the next day she would text me

"Do you think I'm cute"
"Would you consider dating me"
"I think your really hott"
"We should really hang out sometime this week"
"What are you doing Saturday?"
"Why are you blowing me off??"
"Please respond back to me, don't leave me hanging!"
"I just want to see you again!"
"Your such a bitch!"
"So you still coming on Saturday??"

Yeah.......I don't respond well to creepy people who are SUPER clinging. Honestly...I don't really remember who she was.  She even left me voice mails, but I'm a bitch and don't listen to them and just delete them. LOL!

Moral of the story....Stick with the three day rule.

Make contact after three days.
Wait three days after first conversation to suggest a date or a get together.
Wait three weeks to freak out on someone's phone.

Lol! Just saying.

I'm Sexy and I Kind of Know It!

So this past week I have made an effort to go to the gym and work out. Well how its going so far.....Wholly hell! I am SO OUT OF SHAPE ITS SAD!!!  I haven't been to a gym since it was required to in school. And its not because I'm lazy....Ok so it is because I'm lazy.  But I'm making an effort now. And that's all that matters right??

Well, I think so.  But I do have some goals.  Ha ha me and goals is like a fat kid not eating cake....oh wait that's still me.  ANYWAYS!....My goal is to lose 20 pounds.   I don't look it but I'm actually 145 lbs. So me losing 20 isn't all that bad, it will actually take me out of the "overweight" category and FINALLY put me in "normal" since I'm only 5'4".

Mostly, I just want to slim down on my hips and get rid of this stupid baby gut of mine.  I'm so sick of looking like a fattie. Lol! Or at least feeling like one.

But its funny, because if I talk to girls they DON'T disagree with me going to the gym and working out. However when I talk to guys about it COMPLETELY disagree with me going to the gym.  Unless your my boss who is into girls that don't eat apparently. LOL! But lets see where this working out business goes.  My legs are starting to feel a lot better....However my abs hurt like a BITCH! Lol!

But you know what. But by summertime, I'm going to have a rockin bod!  Count on it!

Nerd Fucking Tastic!

I will admit. I'm a fucking nerd. I love video games, computer games, stupid dorky movies, and anime.  I can't live without tech and I live on facebook and youtube.  But can you blame me? I'm a child of the 21st century and when a world is built around having this technology, its easy to get sucked into it for life!

And I can't help but blame my even more geeky older brothers for my current tech obsession when we all started playing Mortal Combat on the N64.  Now, I'm pretty sure that wasn't the first system we had, but its the one that's the most vibrant in my memory.  Well, the N64 and whatever the system it was one of my brothers took outside to the back drive way and smashed it into a MILLION pieces...

AND they wonder why I get all angry when I play video games....

Its no wonder why I'm attracted to the nerdy types too!  I've been around the nerds so much that its all I know!  I will some across some of the dorkest looking dudes and they would be talking about World of Warcraft and I would be taking off my panties the moment they say "Horde".

Because Blood Elfs Rock that's why chump! LOL!

But when it comes to games, I just don't play ANY game they come out with.  I don't like space themed games,  I don't play shooters (that's why I hate Halo so bad.....and the Xbox 360 is a piece of shit anyways), and I don't like playing in 3rd person.  I DO however LOVE LOVE LOVE hack and slash games.  Examples, Champions of Norrath, Return to Arms, and Monster Hunter (all of them because its AMAZING!!!!).

I mean, I'm an RPG kind of girl.

All those other gamer girls can just suck it because honestly I think they are trying to hard to be apart of guy gaming world.  I guess its no bad (no days anyways).  Gaming has become so mainstream that its no longer fun to be a nerd.  Fucking hipsters. I HATE YOU!  Jk.....maybe.

Anyways...I guess my point of this little bit is that if you don't spend 10 minuets yelling at a naked sheep at your door step to go inside your house...and then tearing down a side of said house and hitting it with iron sheers to get it inside your house and YELLING AT IN in real life....then you not a nerd.  Anyone who has played Minecraft will understand.

Ps. Still looking for Diamonds. I'm FINALLY on the right level for it though.  Never start mining at the top of the mountain. Takes FOREVER to get to the bedrock.....

#Kony2012

You've heard of Invisible Children right? You know that there was a Warlord that was abducting children at night in Africa right? Did you know that it was going on for almost 3 decades?  Did you also know that the United States didn't do anything about it because technically they had nothing to gain from going into war with said Warlord?  Do you even know his name?

Well sad to say I didn't.  I knew there was a war going on in Africa and I knew that children were being taken from their homes and were made into solders.  However, I never knew what this Warlord's name was, nor did I know why he was doing this.

Well, funny thing.  There is NO REAL REASON why he is doing this.   The only reason why he is doing this so he can stay in POWER and make people FEAR him.  Do you want to know the name of this Warlord?

Joseph Kony.

This man, no this EVIL needs to be taken down and put to justice.  There is no REASON why he should still be free to run wild.

Want to know the BEST way to stop him?  SPREAD THE WORD!  Blanket the internet with his name and make him famous.  Show the WORLD who his is, what he has done, and make our policy makers in DC do something about it.  If there is a cause, its this one.  We want to make sure that Joseph Kony is captured by the end of THIS YEAR and free all the children he has captured.

What would you do if you were captured in the middle of the night, given a gun, and forced to kill your parents all at a young age?

CARE.  That's all I ask.  Just take 30 minuets of your day and watch this video.  Help spread the word and make the WORLD see who this MONSTER is.

Just because it is not happening in the United States, Doesn't mean it doesn't MATTER.

Follow the links below and get involved. I have.
www.invisiblechildren.com
www.kony2012.com

Why Only the Creepers???

I've been thinking about this for a while.  Only because it's not the first time its happen.  I'm at work, you know, working. And there is always some fucking creepy ass dude that hits on me.  And man, let me tell you. Its not just one TYPE of creepy. I've had all the colors of the rainbow creepy come in and hit on me, grab my ass, ask for my number, or try and get me to bend over (which has worked on me.....sadly enough. Because I'm gullible!).

I think the one that makes me laugh the most is when I was stocking bananas this short, old, chubby black dude comes up as says "Hey girl, your mighty strong. Wanna switch digits?"  Now, not only what he actually said threw me off, but the fact that he had gold teeth threw me for a fucking loop.  Yes....dude had GOLD FUCKING TEETH!!! WITH DIAMONDS!!!

So gross! But anyways...Who the crap says "switch digits"?  That has to be the dumbest pick up line in the freaking world! I had to ask him what that meant.  Which is either lame on my part because apparently I'm not "hip" enough to know what he's saying OR he needs to find a better line to use.  Because that one is SUPER lame.

Another hilarious even was when these two old guys come up to me and ask me what I was doing that weekend. I told them that I was working (like every fucking weekend because I'm lame....) and they hand me this card.  I looked at it and it was a room key to the Peppermill Hotel (or maybe it was Rainbow....) in Wendover. They both looked at me and started to giggle and said, "Well you should call in, get some of your girlfriends and join us! The room is already payed for and we'll treat you the whole weekend!"  Lol! Didn't know how to respond so I kind of just smiled and said I'll think about it.  But honestly I think those old dudes were just trollin' me.

But the creepiest dude that I have ever encountered is the "You dropped your hat" guy.  He comes in the store at least twice a month and every time he sees me he comes up super close behind me and whispers "You dropped your hat."  ......0_o.......

First off....DUDE PERSONAL SPACE MAYBE??  I don't like people creeping up behind me! Its super freaky!   I mean unless your going to have sex with me (but I prefer to be aware that your coming towards me otherwise its rape....just saying) I do not want to feel your breath in my ears.  Makes me shutter just thinking about it.

Second. This wasn't the only thing that this guy has done to me.  The very first time I encountered this guy he went through my checkstand (back when I was a only a checker so you can imagine how long I've had to deal with this cracker) and he asked me out on a date. I kindly declined.  Well dude didn't like that and started arguing with me and threatened to report me to my boss for being a bad employee just plain make up random shit to blackmail me into going out with him.

So to give you an idea of what this guy looks like....well here is the best example.

Yup...no joke. Creepy.

Shit Women Do To Make Men Happy

So the other day I was laying in bed and rubbing my legs. And I said a loud...Man I need to shave my legs. Chris was in the room and said, "Yeah I know, I was trying to cuddle with you last night and it felt like sand paper!....."

Insulting? I think so.  Now why is it that girls have to shave their legs to seem more appealing to men.  But men can be as fucking hairy as a Yeti and its all honky dory?? That's some serious bull shit right there! Do you realize how much time I spend in the shower shaving every inch of my body to keep your sorry ass happy??  And then when I ask you to at least scrub under your ball sack we got some problems.

Men are just disgusting creatures.  I don't have a problem with a dude that manscapes.  If anything I appreciate that shit!  Less time I have to pick hairs out of my teeth, the more fun the both of us are going to have in the long run.  (Ha ha, I know graphic much??)

I mean, is it so much to ask for a guy to spend a little extra time on themselves to make it more appealing to women?  And don't get me wrong, I like a guy with long hair (so I can fucking pull on that shit) and a mustache, but lets focus on grooming some of the other parts thank you very much.

And if your not, then don't fucking complain about me taking a long ass time in the bathroom.  Yeah, the water bill may go up because I'm taking hour long showers....but hey I come out of there all nice and silky smooth!  There is a price you have to pay when it comes to beauty.

I would love to dare a guy to do all the shit we girls do for them for just a week. You know what, even for one day.  It ain't easy.  So don't complain to me that my legs feel like fucking sandpaper because I didn't shave.  I get lazy sometimes and I work like a beast.  And sometimes I want to look like one! Lol!

Moral of the story? Don't piss me off about my looks or feels I suppose because I won't do this shit for a month.  Lets see how attractive I am after that! Because I PROMISE you it ain't going to be pretty! There's going to be a Chewbacca in my pants and I'm gonna make you eat it! Hahaha......Yeah that was a little too graphic even for me!

With a Little Help From My Friends!

We all have gone through it. Family can be so judgmental when it comes to the choices that you make.  The funny thing is, most of the time they don't know the full story nor do they even bother to find out.  They just want to express their opinion. Thats it.  

Maybe its because I'm the youngest of 7....and I just get the shitty end of the stick.  But come on now, cut me some slack! I may not have made the best choices in my life, but can you honestly say that you have done the same? And how long did it take you to make the changes that you did?  What was the situation and what was the overall outcome?  I hate it when people call me stupid or the like when they have no idea what the hell is going on. 

And this is why I love my friends...They actually take the time to ask me whats going on, why I am making the choices I am, and well actually give a damn about it!  I mean, I'm not asking for sympathy. I just need a shoulder to cry on, a hand to hold, and an ear to listen.  But apprentally that is way too much to ask for from family....right?

Maybe I'm just one of those unlucky ones who have to come from such a broken family where we can't even give eachother a glimpse of compassion towards each other. And its sad...but you can't decide who your family is. But you can choose who your friends are and I think I have some of the best people in the world who I call friends. Love you guys! ^_^

Every Night is a Great Night!

It seems like I go out a lot.  Which is probably true. But we all need something to blow off some serious steam.  Work is a bitch and home life isn't any better.  So going out to the club or even just sitting your ass down with a pitcher of beer can and will be absolutely amazing!  Oh and any place out there that serves hot wings or nachos is a plus. Love love love me some finger food!

But like every night out, there is always something that goes wrong and just blows your whole mood.  Mostly for me the problem are the snooty girls on the dance floor.  Yeah I don't care what the fuck your wearing for one.  For two, I don't give a damn if your a better dancer then me.  And three....If you fucking shove me again for no fucking reason I am going to stab your eye and make you eat the floor on your skinny ass!

Don't get me wrong. I love being able to dress up when I go out, but I dress up for myself.  Because you know what?? I look damn good! But if your just dressing up to get the attention of guys and then pushing every other girl aside is just wrong. We are all here to have fun, not to be pushed around by a fucking 18 year old stuck in 12 year old boy's body.

Oh and the hair whipping. By the way sweetheart....Just because Willow Smith made a song that's about whipping your hair back in for doesn't mean you have to take it seriously and do it at the club!  That shit is not very attractive and it hurts like a bitch. I mean, aren't you hot from having your ridiculous long hair down? You must be because your hair is beginning to sweat!

Speaking of sweat...Have you guys heard of DEODORIZATION???  You fuckers smell! If you sweat that much and start to reek, then maybe you should switch deodorant.  And why do girls think that it is super hot to see a guy all sweaty?  News flash...It isn't?\

If it wasn't so much of a party girl, a lot of other stuff could have really bothered me and made my night a bad one.  But like I said...every night is a good night.  And its even better when I get plastered! lol! True story!