Future. Part 1.

OMG.....WAFFLES!!! Looks so good....Yum. And yes I made this all by myself. ^_^

I've been thinking a lot about my future lately.  And I don't know why because (actually I do know why because this topic was brought up last night while talking to Cameron and again when I was talking to my boss....anyways....) thinking too much about what you want to happen in life can sometimes be bad.  Mostly because a lot of the times shit doesn't go as planned and all your left is disappointment.  


I think the main thing that I've been thinking about is what I want to be when I grow up.  Funny right?  Actually it's more like, what do I want to be doing job wise in 10 years.  Honestly, I don't want to be in retail grocery anymore.  I want to be done with it now.  Don't get me wrong.  It's a decent job, I get pretty good pay, and my benefits are pretty awesome.  But I hate having to get up every morning and doing the same damn grind every day.  It's unnecessarily stressful and there are time where I feel like I'm not getting any better at my job.


It's pretty damn hard work.  Upside to it is that I don't have to go to the gym three times a week because I get my workout there.  Reasons why I've lost so much weight in the past year.  But it gets to a point where it's tiring me way too much where I get home and all I want to do is sleep.  I feel so exhausted all the time.  


I mean, if I want to be drained all the time, I'd rather be doing something that I love.  Something I can be excited about doing every day and be willing to pour my heart and soul into.  That's why I'm for sure going back to school next year.  =D


And don't just stupid sit in the class room and listen to boring crap all day kind of school.  I want to go to culinary school.  Take some awesome cooking classes so one day I can open up my own restaurant and be my own boss and actually be passionate about my job.  


If there is one thing that I love doing and that I'm super passionate about it's got to be cooking.  I think I'm pretty good at it.  And there are people who say the same things too. But I want to go to school for it because there is so much that is out there that I don't even have a clue.  And one thing that I would love to get better at is baking.  


I'm not the best baker....I actually fail pretty hard on it.  But if I can learn and start really making up my own recipes I would be in heaven.  Because I love cookies.  Like, I really fucking love cookies.  

I just really want to be excited about going to work again.  And make a mark in this world by feeding people awesome food.  I just want to start this new beginning like right now.  But unfortunately there are a few things I have to take care of first. ^_^