Why is it that when you stand up for yourself, don't take stupid shit from other people, and act tough....people forget that you still have feelings?
I can handle a lot, I really do (however I'm sure this blog doesn't depict that image of me). And when I'm out with friends, I can play hard just like one of the guys. But I think it's because I act that way they forget that I'm capable of crying.
So when you tell me that you just want to be friends because you like talking to me or because you value me as a friend. Don't act surprised when I'm hurt and/or angry at the fact that you just basically threw me out on my ass and act like I do not exist.
It hurts the worst when you just ignore me.
But I get it. Apparently your going through hard times. But isn't that what friends are for? To be there for each other and talk to one another for comfort and support? At least that's what I thought friends do.
And, yeah we have a past. But you already put a stop to that. Which I completely understand. Just don't act like none of it ever happened. Its insulting for one. But my feelings doesn't mean a damn thing to you now does it?
I'm a good person. And I'm a good friend.
So lets look at it this way. One less person I can not think about during my day and worry if they are doing alright in life. One less person I can count on if I'm having a bad day and need to talk to someone and one less person I have to listen to when their world is falling apart.
Just one less person for me to love since obviously they do not love me back.
So really....is it a loss?
It just would have been nice for a little heads up for whatever the hell is going on. I think I deserve a little explanation. But maybe that's too much to ask for. I know I'm a tough girl and I can handle it. And eventually I will get over it and get over you. But for now I'm just hurt.
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