Healing.

I find myself experiencing a plethora of emotions throughout the day.   And I hate it.   I know it's going to take some time to get over it.  Get over a few things actually because my failed marriage is only the first layer of my insanity....

But I'm happy.  As odd as it is I'm the happiest I have ever been in a very long time.  I know that there are going to be times where my emotions will get the best of me and I will cry. A lot.  Because as of current....I have not cried about anything.

I'm been frustrated....
Punching stuff...
Starting pointless fights with people.....
Lashing out.....

Normal crap.

But I haven't cried.  I haven't gotten to that point yet and I'm not how long it is going to take.  And I think that when I actually do get to that point I'm going to feel so much better about things.

It's hard...But I knew that from the beginning.  And it's nice to finally see him slightly move on.  Or at least realize that I'm moving on and actually being happy and not just content with my life.

But like everything else that has happened to me.....I will get over it.

I'm going to heal. And I'm going to be a much better and a much wiser person.  And honestly I'm very excited to see how much I grow as a person.  With all this happening to me I feel like I haven't experienced enough in life.  And I need to.  It's part of being human.