Reasons.

There have been so many reasons why I have been such an angry person. 

My job sucks.

My living situation sucks.

My inlaws suck.

But you know, one thing that doesn't suck is all my friends.  Its so nice to be able to cry and not to be seen as weak and pathetic.  They are all there for me, some more than others but I value them all the same.

One day I'm going to be happy. And it will be because my friends helped me through it all. 
I think mostly I need a reason to wake up in the morning.  I need a reason to smile everyday and not just do it out of habit.  I want to be able to really smile again. 

I need to love. I need to be loved. And then I can finally live.