So I've never really been alone. And not just home alone. But just alone.
It's very much an odd feeling for me. But I will get used to it, or maybe I will find someone to fill up this void that I currently feel.
Since I was basically 14 years old, I've always had him. And I know that all I have are my kids. Yes I love my children. But there is a different feeling you have when it's your companion.
Someone to go home to when you get back from work. Someone to listen to you when you talk about unimportant things. Someone to just hold you.
It really does suck.
I get to watch my all my friends be in love.
I hate it, but in the end it will be good for me. Because when I do end of finding someone that can deal with my special kind of crazy I'm going to appreciate it. Never take it for granted. And maybe be a little bit more open when it comes to love.
So alone I will be. For now.
i'm sorry you feel alone i wish i could keep you company again because i miss your company so much so that i can't even sleep at night
ReplyDeleteHonestly, I do not want to get into this. It was your fault from the beginning. I tried EVERYTHING. Abandoned my own family and accepted yours as my own and all I ever received was disrespect and hatred. Yes I feel alone. But really, I have been alone for the larger part of our relationship. Getting married was the biggest mistake of my life. At least, getting married to you. You will never ever give my company again. If anything. I'm happy with being alone if my only other option is being with you.
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